Water issues....

Water.........it's so important to drink lots of water.....but why is it so hard to even take 2 liters of it everyday??? I think I only take about 1 liter per day....which is not enough. I need to take more.....

They say that it's good to take at least 2 glasses each morning before brushing your teeth.....it's a natural way of detoxifying....boleh "awet muda" and bla bla bla.....I've tried it before and then found it quite nauseating after a couple of weeks.....hahaha...........

These past few days.....I have only been taking plain water or tea....tea without any milk.....but lately the tea does not seem to taste good anymore....so I just take plain water. Drinks with milk makes me want to vomit.....don't know why.....it used to be a favorite thing to do to add milk in my drinks....but nowadays, it makes me want to vomit. Crazy......must be a side effect from the medication......

So....the only drink I take now is either plain water or I add some glucose in it for taste....and energy....so boring.....but on the bright side maybe I can lose some weight if this goes on hehehehe

Mix salad.....fruits and lettuce...

Thought of preparing myself a big bowl of mix salad today......something I can eat for lunch time. Checked my fridge.....there are some pears, red apples, romaine lettuce, lime (limau kasturi) and some walnuts.....

Heated up the walnuts for a while.....then when it's hot enough, put them in my plate and chopped them up into little pieces.......the pears and red apples I diced them up...the romaine....just shredded them in medium sizes.....and threw everything in the bowl....then squeezed the limau kasturi on top of them and mix them up nicely......

The taste is actually quite nice....refreshing....I guess this new diet is going to be ok after all....as long as I can get the fresh supply then I think it will be ok.....

Packing....

Am in the midst of packing still........there are boxes everywhere in the house now....my studio right is the most messed up place in the house! I can't even walk easily in it without bumping into some boxes and packages on the floor....a total mess! I can be quite blurry when it comes to packing. Can't seem to make a decision as to where to place what......which box is more suitable for which material and labeling them is most important otherwise I will be in trouble later when I need to find things in case of emergency hehehe.....

I've packed up some of my clothes already.......art materials....and stuff.....gave away some old furniture and got rid some of the unwanted things that has been lingering in the store for years....suddenly the house looks a little empty in certain places....so funny looking hehehe....I didn't realise how much junk I have in the house till now......there are just so many unwanted stuff that can be recycled too......

The heat is another factor that's making me blurry when packing.....hahaha....can actually feel the sweat dropping on my skin.....urrrghhh......the hot weather these days is really getting on to me.....crazy weather..... :( Makes me dizzy and lazy and sleepy.....zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Food......what I'll miss...

Ever since I found out what was wrong with my health about over a week ago......I started to list down what are the things I can and cannot eat.....can drink and cannot drink....can do and cannot do.....but what I shall miss most is what I cannot eat! I've known this for quite a long time ago but have gone through a hard time disciplining myself to follow this diet. Obviously because it's too much for me to handle......most people who knows me can tell how much I love to eat.....I don't over do it but I do know how to enjoy a good meal.

I try not to complain about this too much especially since it's for my own good......after all, even though there are a lot of things I must avoid taking, there are a lot more stuff out there that I can still take. I just need some time to adjust to this new diet....I've done it before years ago....was so strict with the diet....no matter what people think of it, I kept on with it. And of course I felt so much better with that diet.....felt so healthy too ......but it all changed when I came and live in KL......there were so many great goodies here that I just couldn't resist....and so after a year of that strict diet...I failed to follow it anymore....slowly I turned to the dark side hahahaha.....I also became a coffee addict and ate without even thinking of the consequences (not all of the times though hehehehe)

I tried to do the "mind over matter" thingy.......it worked for a while.....then I went back to consuming what I liked....I felt guilty after that....but then, since it makes me happy, I didn't care.....until it was causing me pain......then I knew I had to do something quick.....

I've always loved to eat fried foods....LOVE, LOVE, LOVE them.....and now, I can't take them anymore......I can only steam, boil, grill and poach them.....I love to eat chicken....not much of a beef person nowadays.....but, both of those I can't eat anymore.....the only meat I am allowed to consume now is fish.....and only the ones with scales......hmmmm......well at least I am allowed to eat fish....if it's just vegetables and fruits....I'll just die.....hehehehe......

I'm supposed to avoid taking coffee and tea as well........gosh....that was hard to do.....being an addict and all......but it seems that the "bad coffee" is not real coffee beans....it's the instant ones, like Nescafe and all those 3 in 1 coffee and tea mixture......that is forbidden for me! So if it's from the freshly grind ones, that is not so bad.....but so far, it's been 7 days since I last took any coffee....yay! Did take tea a couple of times though....but tea has never been my favorite anyways, so it was ok to leave that one......it's the coffee that I miss most....huhuhuhu.....

Yesterday I took time to go out and buy my groceries......and boy did I bought a lot of vegetables! My aunt just laughed looking at what I bought.....I guess, I'm beginning to look like a rabbit to her hahaha.....because of all the vegetables I have to eat....I was born on the year of the Rabbit...so eating vegetables has never been a problem....neither is eating lots of fruits....so I think I'll be ok with that...the only problem is I need the meat as well.....but I hate to clean the fish!! hahaha......plus fish is expensive to buy. I am not allowed to eat eggs either...it seems that eggs are harmful for me too....SIGH......so I guess I'll just have to learn to eat fish once a week or once a month hahahaha.....

After 9 days of the "detoxification".....there's already signs of my body healing itself.....apart from taking my medication that is......I do feel the difference.....I just need to keep on telling myself that no matter what....I have to do this for my own good....if I don't stay disciplined I won't be getting better.....so must always be strong and motivated!!!! Chaiyo! Chaiyo!!!

Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang.....

Lyrics - Tak Mungkin Kerna Sayang

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Chorus:
Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali sekala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba-tiba
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

- Alyah

The first time dengar lagu ni....terus syok habis.....mungkin sebab sesuai dengan apa yang I lalui sekarang ni kut hehehe.....macam ada makna je tuuuu.....kuikuikui....and maybe because of the melody...I like it very much hehehe.....and I can sing this song quite well....suits my voice hahaha...perasan!!! Tau takpe! ;)

Masa pergi and balik Alor Setar hari tu.....bus yang aku naik tu asyik kedengaran radio DJ pasang lagu ni jer....kiranya lebih 10 kali la campur trip pergi dan balik.....terus aku layan perasaan....mai tang chorus tu yang tak tahan tu...fuhhhhh.....memang kenalah pada situasinya....hehehehe....Masa tu aku tak tahu sapa penyanyi lagu ni....aku agak-agak je la....boleh bayangkan muka dia....tapi namanya tak menjelma difikiranku....so apa lagi....bila balik ke KL semula...terus cepat-cepat aku buat research aaaaah.....hahaha.....rupa-rupanya si Alyah....sedap gak suara dia ni...I like.... :)

Kau....telah jauh.....jauh dari ku....tiada ruang dihati buat mu..............

It's been a while.......

Gosh....it's been a while since I could blog here.....the PC is fixed BUT not working as well as it should be. Most of the time it acts up! Because of this, I can't take any orders online.....it's just too difficult, especially for the custom made orders........Honestly I'm pretty tired of fixing it.....wish I could get me a new one! But since I can't afford a new one, this old one will do for now. As long as I can use it to check my emails, blogs and Facebook hehehe....

A lot of things has been going on lately, going through a lot of difficulties now......with my ill health and computer problems and plus the other things that has been bothering me and disturbing my peace at home.......I've finally decided to MOVE.....move where??? ahaaaa.....that's a secret for now.....will reveal it when the time comes hehehhee.....

Yup.....I'm spending most of my time now packing my things at home.....doing them bit by bit....there are a lot of things to do, things to settle......my head is spinning! haha! I have not been creating anything for the past few weeks now......I have made something for an aunt of mine though.....but that was it....no creations after that.....boohoohooohooo.......... :(

I really want everything to be settled as soon as I can so that I can resume back to work.....but it does not seem as easy.....there are just too many things to do.....and I just don't have the energy to do them all at one go......kinda feel frustrated sometimes.....but I have to accept the fact that I can only do what I can.....time is running short.....I just hope I can make it on time for the move. Hope everything turns out well, God willing........

Offline blues

It's been a few days now since the PC at my house went "crazy" and had to be sent for repairs. Feeling a little sad about that.....not just because I couldn't connect with my friends and customers easily at the comfort of my own home, but also because I couldn't do work easily as well....huhuhuhu......and every time I want to check my mails, I have to go to the internet cafe.....how boring!

As you know, my work kinda depends a lot on the PC.....printer and bla bla bla......so without those darling equipments, gadgets or whatever you call them....I'm a little lost.....not used to doing work without them....so now I have to learn to do things without them.... for a while....just a while.....hopefully it takes a while to repair it.......it better not take too long!!!!!!!!! (going a little crazy here hahahahahah).

Not sure if you all are aware......because of the load of work I've been getting since early this year, I've been neglecting my health as well.....so I guess I'm also taking this opportunity to take a little break from work for a while.....and since the PC is out....it all works out! hahaha! what a coincidence huh??? oh well!

I've been meaning to take this leave for quite sometime now and I guess now is the perfect timing to do so.....plan to go back to my hometown once all my pending orders are done.....hmmmm.....when when when????????????? soon I hope!!!

Adios amigos!

What I hate most.......

I wasn't able to eat anything tonight after having a stressful conversation with my customer this evening. My hands were shaking not because of hunger but because I was very upset. I just froze there and tears flowed like river.

I never thought I would have to be in this situation again after learning the hard truth a couple of years ago. I thought I was smart enough now after going through similar experiences before. Thinking perhaps I can protect myself from getting fooled again. Boy was I wrong.....

If there is one thing I can't stand is people who take advantage of the artist's hard work. We work hard day and night figuring out how to make our artwork better.....we do a lot of research and brainstorming for new ideas. Then we see our ideas and hard work get taken away by these thieves. It's ok to love our ideas....it's ok that you want to buy the artwork.....but please don't claim that it's yours just because you bought it from me. If I knew in the beginning that the plan was to use my artwork for their project, I wouldn't have done or taken the order in the first place. I'm sorry but that's me. That's how I work. I don't appreciate people claiming my work as theirs and putting their logo on it. It's not like I work for them....I'm not their employee.....I don't get paid monthly to do designs for them....

And what I hate the most is when my customer said that I should have told her about my logo.....that I should have told her that all my artwork has logos on them. I think that goes without saying!! Most artists I know put their logos or brand name on all their artworks.....that's how it works. Too bad that she has no idea about all this. Too bad that she had a hard time taking my logo off my handmade cards. It's just too bad!

Just when I'm starting to feel happy again....and motivated to create... I get this news slapped on my face. All of this trouble for both sides could have been prevented if only she was honest to me in the first place...... :(

An old eraser given a new life.....

Believe it or not, my aunt took the trouble to find her old eraser just so that I can practice my skills in rubber stamp carving! hahaha! So here it is, the old eraser (a Faber Castell brand).....at the mercy of my lino cutter hahaha....LOL!

I was thinking hard about what design I would do on this little eraser.....which is by the way only about the size of my thumb! As I was looking for ideas.....I thought of making a house and a small tree beside it....so that I can use it to make a card for a new home. I have never made a card like that before and was thinking of doing so for quite some time now......so I went ahead with the idea. :) I used a ball point pen to draw the little house and tree....

Here it is after I have dug out the outer part of the drawing....kinda tricky there....especially the area between the house and the tree. I was afraid that I might cut too much and eventually loose part of the roof! hahaha!

Ok....that is the bamboo stick.....I sharpened the ends and use it to drill tiny holes in the tree.....I want it to look like as if the tree has some fruits on it hahaha.....so funny!!! I even drilled a hole on the front door of the house....can you see it??? LOL! ;)

Not sure if you notice this......but you can see from the original drawing to the end result that the house and the tree seem a little smaller......that's because I have accidentally made tones of mistakes and had to amend them....so as a result, they became smaller.....oh well! Lesson learned! :D

So here it is.....tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! My second rubber stamp! :)

Roti tissue rupanya....

Happy Labour Day to all!! Hari ni hari buruh.....so kira cuti la juga for me walaupun kerja sendiri hahaha.......tapi lepaih balik rumah sambung balik wat kerja hahaha cuti menda tu! Cuti separuh je.....

Keluar jalan2 hari ni.......pagi2 pergi makan tosei and roti canai hehehe.....toseinyer sedap gak....tapi tak sesedap tosei kat Restaurant Rasyid di Ampang hehehehe.......so kat restorant baru dekat rumah ni.....Restaurant Nasi Kandar Kayu....fuyooo.....roti canai dia sebijik macam roti canai kat Alor Setar....macam tak percaya ja, at last ada gak roti canai kat KL ni yang sedap hahaha........selama ni asyik jumpa roti canai yang macam plastik ja....hhaha....leper dan liat! eiiiiiii! So apa lagi??? Lepaih ni boleh la pi sana makan lagi roti canai tu hahaha......

Yang memeranjatkan masa kami singgah kat restaurant tu is that ada satu menu kat restaurant tu yang agak peliks la for me......tergezut gak melihatnya......tak pasti la pulak apa nama item tu dalam menu........anyways ada la satu family ni order item tu.......nampak macam roti canai tapi panjang giler roti canai tu.....errrmmmm panjang ke tinggi??? hahaha.....masa mamak tu bawa roti tu....nampak tinggi la sebab cara dia pegang roti tu dalam keadaan menegak! So....bila sampai kat meja makan....dia terpaksa letak roti tu di atas 3 pinggan besar ( pinggan yang bentuk macam daun pisang tuuuu ) .....haaaa....korang boleh imagine tak??? Betapa besar and panjangnya roti tu......nampak very crispy and ada gula bertaburan di atasnya. Adik2 tu dok pikir canna la nak makan roti tu......fuyoooo....ada adik sorang tu siap gigit2 roti tu hahaha macam tikus la pulak cara dia makan hahaha......dia tak guna tangan masa makan roti tu.....it was so funny hahaha......geli hati nengok gelagat diaorang.....I wish I had my camera masa tu.....leh la ambik gambar! LOL! Nak mampus ambik gambar diaorang....sure kena marah!

My aunty tu teringin nak order roti tu next time kami ke sana......tapi I bangkang.....sebab rasanya kalau besar macam tu, tak larat nak makan babe!.....at least kalau 3 or 4 orang ok la nak habiskan roti tu......and satu lagi....roti tu ada gula.....sure sweet semacam jer....tak best lah.....I suka my roti canai with dhall hahaha........cerewet gila la pulak aku ni....tiba2 je hahaha.....selalunya aku ni bantai jer apa pun yang free ahahahaha..........errrmmm tengoklah canna nanti.....sebenarnya malu nak order sebab sure kami akan jadi center of attraction kat kedai tu hahaha....semua pakat tengok nanti.....nanti nak makan pun tak reti.....jadi blur je hahaha......kelakar2...... :D