Moths

Just as I thought that my weekend was going to be pretty plain......something out of the ordinary happened! :) Two moths appeared in front of my eyes this morning to greet me as I went out to pick up the dry laundry I washed yesterday.

I encountered the first one wrapped in my blue towel as I carried it inside the house. I didn't realise that it was clinging on the towel all along. Poor thing was wrapped up together with the other dried laundry I pick up outside the house. While I was picking up the towel and was going to fold it, suddenly I saw something flew off of it  and up it went flying around the room! I was so freaked out I screamed!! I thought that it was some kind of a big scary insect!! I didn't have a clue what it was in the beginning. The first thing that came to my mind was could it be a big scary cockroach?! LOL! I thought it was going to bite me. When it finally got tired of flying around in the house, it rested on the wooden glass panel. That's when I got the chance to get a closer look at it. I was so relieved to find out that it was just a harmless moth. Phew! A big one though! :)

Just as I thought it was over, I encountered another one outside the house......and guess where the second one was? On my blue underwear! LOL!! The second one was a big one too.....but it had a different design on it's wings. I couldn't shake it off and so I let it stay on it. I assumed that the moth was drying it's wings. Probably it just came out of it's cocoon....that explains why it won't budge. I didn't know what to do......so I took the underwear with the moth clinging on it and placed it on one of the trees in the garden. hahahahaha.....at least it's close to nature where it belongs. Whenever it's ready, it can fly straight into our garden :).

Strange thing is........why did both the moth stayed on blue items?? Weird ya? Both my towel and underwear are blue in color.......wonder why they both preferred blue?? Hmmmm.....perhaps they both love the same  favourite color as I do.....hahahaha. ;)

J' Amelia Boutique

There is a new fashion boutique in town at Kompleks Perniagaan Sultan Abdul Hamid called J'Amelia Boutique that has just opened for business on the 1st of July 2010. I had the opportunity to do a survey just a few days after it's launching. J stands for Jamil...who is the owner's husband and her name is Amelia. 

I bought my "baju kurung moden" there for Raya recently. A new baju raya at last, after years and years of recycling old ones from my wardrobe hahahahha. I really love the material of the new baju kurung moden so much! And the color is gorgeous hehehe.....well, in my opinion la....hehehehe. When I first tried it, it fitted me perfectly as if it was tailored made for me. I am not the type who likes to buy baju kurung off the rack. I usually go to a tailor and custom made one for me because it's so difficult to get a baju kurung that actually fits me well. For years now I have been so lazy to go to a tailor and make a new one for myself. I've been to the fabric shop a few times before  though to find fabric for my baju kurung but every time I go there, I feel lost! I could never decide on a specific pattern to buy. So I always end up going home empty handed. 

So what made me change my mind this year? What made me buy a new baju raya?  I guess the  color of the fabric that I saw on that baju kurung moden blew me away. The design itself is not even fancy at all.....it's so simple.....but when I saw it.....I knew I had to buy it. I just knew. I had to own it. Usually girls would love to have baju kurung with tons of sequins and beads on them. But not me. I'm the type who prefers simple yet beautiful baju kurung. It has to be comfortable. I have to be able to move around comfortably in it. And at the same time looking good in it too. :)

Do check out this boutique. You just might find the right baju raya for yourself this year. I know I did :)

Itch relief

I'm so relieved that I am no longer scratching my self silly today.....all thanks to olive oil. Yesterday was a nightmare......but I am grateful that God gave me the idea to try out olive oil on my allergies last night before going to bed. I applied it on all the affected areas and also on my face.....and seconds later, the itching stopped! It's a miracle! Believe me.....I couldn't have felt better. I had a really good night sleep....no disturbances at all.

I also got some great tips from my good friend Barbara about how to relief the itch and allergies I'm having. It seems that all these allergies I'm having are connected to my liver problem. I do have that problem and no wonder the allergies keep coming back. So I need to treat that problem first. Her natural remedy for it would be to drink 1/2 lemon juice mixed with hot water. Drink it when it's still hot.....and make sure it's taken early in the morning before you take any breakfast. I've heard of this remedy before but I thought all this time it's only good for getting rid of oil in the body after eating oily food. I usually like to take hot lime juice after taking oily food. It clears the throat and comforts the stomach as well. I definitely feel a lot better drinking it after a heavy meal that consists oily food. 

Another remedy would be to take hot dandelion, wormwood or milk thistle tea. Hmmmm.....I've never seen those types of tea here....but I've seen dandelion and milk thistle supplements before. heheheh. These type of tea are quite bitter it seems.....gosh, I'm not sure I can swallow anything bitter right now or ever. hhuhuhu.....Oh yes! She also mentions that the best remedy for itching is Vinegar! Never knew that either.....but I wonder what type would be suitable. Will try to find out more about it and post it here. 

Whatever it is.....the olive oil sure has helped a lot. I will keep on religiously applying it on my skin everyday because I know it's a huge relief for my itching problem.....not to mention that it also will help my skin age gracefully hehehehe. :)

Serious allergy attack!

I told myself time and time again to never ever! ever! eat chicken again......but noooooooooooooooooooo.......I just had to eat it the other day at the wedding reception because it looked so delicious and so tempting and now I'm suffering like hell from the serious allergy attack! Urrrghhhh! Just when I thought that things were back to normal again, the allergy came back to haunt me. I hate it when this happens. I'm itching all over and I find it so hard to concentrate on my work all day. Luckily the weather is rather cool today otherwise the itching would be a lot more worse. I'm controlling myself.....trying my level best not to scratch like crazy. Put some olive oil on affected places to sooth the itching feeling. Sob sob.... :'(

I seriously have to detox after this......seriously have to discipline myself.....no more....no more yummy chicken....no more eggs too.....no more a lot of things actually......huaaaarrrrrrghhhhhhhhh........ :'(

Olive oil as a moisturizer

Believe it or not......for the past few days now I've been religiously applying olive oil on my face before I go to sleep at night as part of my beauty regime. LOL! :D Why? Well......I saw on TV a while back, a Malaysian celebrity who confessed that applying olive oil on his face everyday for many years has helped maintain his youthful look and wrinkle free skin. He doesn't look his age at all. He looks so much younger.......and I can barely see any wrinkles on his face. Although he admits that applying olive oil alone is not enough to maintain his good looks, as there are other aspects in his life that he took good care of for his overall wellness.

I knew that.....I knew that I needed to do more than just apply olive oil on my face to look good. I need to exercise, eat well, get enough sleep and etc etc. But even so, we must not forget that olive oil's benefit for the skin is not something new. It's an ancient beauty secret that dates back 5000 years ago. Olive oil  is very high in antioxidants and Vitamin E. It will help guard and heal our skin. Olive oil is not just something that we use for cooking you know. It's also very beneficial for the skin, as well as for hair. Not only will it keep our skin hydrated, it will also aid in getting rid of skin problems such as acne, dry skin and sunburns.

What I love about the oil is that the it is easily absorbed when applied on the skin. It's so soft and smooth.  So soothing for the skin. I love it. God knows if my skin will show any kind of difference over the next few months or years even if I continue to do this regime religiously......but I sure would give it a shot! After all....it's natural, it will not have any bad side affects if used for long period of time as it does not contain any chemical that might harm us........and it's so cheap to buy. Why not ya? Just give it a go! I got nothing to lose and neither do you.  :)  

Tornado Lin

What a day! I was out of the house around lunch time to attend a wedding reception. My Mom got an invitation to attend it, so I accompanied her there. It was quite a grand wedding reception and I must say that food was really fantastic! I wish I could have eaten more.....but unfortunately my dress was a little too tight at the waist and it was already screaming for help, "mayday! mayday!".....the zip would have popped if I  had eaten any more rice. LOL!

I've just finished doing laundry and am so tired now. I think anyone would be feeling tired if they had to wash about 3 loads of them! LOL! Luckily today the sun is not hiding behind the clouds.....so my clothes can dry up pretty fast. I'm imagining the loads of dry clothes that I need to fold later on in the evening. Well, at least I know today my hands and arms are getting a great workout! :D Good for them!

And right now, I'm in my studio......relaxing my tired arms.....and glancing at my working table and the rest of the area. Honestly, I'm not surprised by how it looks.  The whole place looks as if it was hit by a tornado. I call it "Tornado Lin"...ahahahahha! Every once in a while, the place gets hit by Tornado Lin......whenever she's on a roll. It's normal. No biggie. I know I need to get the place cleaned up and organized again. Sometimes I like the mess......and I know where everything is no matter how messy it is. But there are times when I get so sick of the mess.....and immediately I start cleaning up and even rearranging the things inside the studio. Eventually no matter how I get it organized, it will always get messed up again and again. People say that it reflects on how messed up my brain is.......perhaps they are right.....but then again.....they might be wrong too hehehehe. I for one, don't really care what people think of it. Coz I'm so happy whenever I'm in it. No matter how messed up the place is. It's my territory....and I have total freedom to do whatever I want in it. :)

Relieved

It's been really hectic these past few days......there were times when I just didn't feel like being creative. But since I was committed to my customers, I had to do it no matter how I felt. Times like this reminded me when I was studying art and design in ITM.....there were times when I didn't feel like being creative at all, but I had to force my brain to come up with something creative. LOL! Yup, it's not easy....I'm sure others who are in the same boat as I am can relate to what I'm saying here. There is this huge block in my brain that just refuse to move. It just stayed there till God knows when. I had to peep behind the block to look for my ideas. It's hidden behind it. If I'm lucky, I get to see a big piece of it......if not....just a tiny bit.

But today I'm a little relieved. Relieved because most of my commitments are done......now I can start experimenting on new designs, new projects and also gotta make some cards that my Mom ordered from me to be given to her friends. Yup.....my Mom is one of my fans as well hahahaha.......or perhaps she's a fan because she knows she can get the cards for free....LOL! Well, that's probably one of the reasons for sure.....hehehehe

I've got a lot of things going on in my head right now.  A lot has happened over the week that bothered me. A lot thrilled me as well. So it's a mix of both. Good things...and bad things. But that's normal I suppose. It happens to everyone. Everyone I know has the same thing going on with them....more or less......it's just how you handle it. I'm still learning. But I'm happy that I have great support from  my family and friends.....even online friends can be very very supportive beyond my expectations. Strangers even.....you'll never know what you'll get everyday.....it's little surprises that bumps into you.....that makes you smile....that cheers you up and clears all the mess in your head.....and the sadness in your heart.

I also believe that it's important to make good choices in life. If you choose to be happy......then you'll be happy....if you choose to be sad.....than you'll be sad. If you choose to be ignorant....then ignorant you shall be. If you choose to change for the better.....then you'll change. If not, then you'll stay the same old same old person you are now till one day should you decide to be otherwise. Well, I for one will always choose to be happy above all. I do sometimes feel sad about certain things that happened to me but usually it doesn't last that long. Coz I'll always remind myself that everything happens for a reason. I may not know why God made it that way for me, but I'm sure there is a reason. If I'm patient enough, one day I will find out what it is. It usually happens like that.....well at least for me. :) 

Vomiting paper

Feel like vomiting paper right now. There is one card project I'm doing at the moment that is quite difficult to do. Why is it difficult? Because I am in no mood whatsoever to do any custom made cards. Yes, you heard me, I took an order of custom made card!!!! Even when I told myself not to take anymore of it this year. I'm so weak. I couldn't say no to a friend......I accepted the order and now I feel like....like....like.....ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH! There! I feel a little better. :P

Been thinking about how to go about doing it for the past few days now. Thinking and thinking and thinking........and only this afternoon I decided to wing it no matter what. I'm so blessed that my friend is willing to wait for a long time for me to get this order done. 

I have to get it done by tomorrow.....I also have another project due by tomorrow.....urrrrghhhhh.....why why why why......why did I get myself into this??? :(

My inability to say NO is truly making me sick. I'm sick and tired of myself for not being able to say NO. When am I going to learn? :(

When do you live?

What a day! I thought of fasting today (puasa ganti hehehehe) but looks like I couldn't do it because I was just too tired. I did fast yesterday though. Well, at least I tried to do it...hehehe.  So one day done, a few more days to go! Ramadhan is drawing closer and closer and I'm a little worried that I might not be able to do all the "puasa ganti" before Ramadhan comes.....so, I gotta give it my best shot! LOL! Luckily my Mom is joining me as well.....so at least I got company. It's always good to have someone fasting with you..... :)

As usual my day is always busy busy busy.....from morning till night time. I barely get to do other activities outside the house because I'm always so busy in my studio. Either making cards and bookmarks or doing research on the net or blogging or promoting my business online. 

I find that ever since I moved to Alor Setar....I rarely cook. When I was staying in Kuala Lumpur I had to cook everyday. Breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Here.....my Mom handles the kitchen. It's her territory. I just help out whenever she's busy. She seems to enjoy feeding me. LOL! And I enjoy eating whatever she prepares for me. I'm so easy to please hehehehe.

Funny that even though I don't cook that much these days, I still don't have enough time for work.  Cooking used to be a lame excuse of mine for not getting enough time for work :P. Work is endless. There is always something that I need to do in my studio. I don't even watch TV that much either these days. I've stopped watching most of my regular TV shows too. I'm so absorbed with work. My friend said to me the other day......if I'm so busy working....when do I live? That statement really made me speechless for a while. It's true what he said. Felt a little sad because I suddenly realised how much I  am missing in life. All the wonderful things I should be experiencing at my age......but I don't get to experience them because I'm so absorbed with my work. 

I suppose the real reason why I haven't been really living is because I'm so driven to realise my dreams. I love what I do for a living.....it's more than just work for me. When what I do is so interesting and fascinating, I don't see it much as work. It's more like a great adventure. I'm so passionate about it. A lot of people think that I shouldn't be working too hard.....but what can I do....I just love what I'm doing. It makes me happy. Different people enjoy life differently. But just because I love what I'm doing now, does not mean that I shouldn't go out and enjoy the other things in  life out there. I want to but.......there is always a but....hehehhehe there is always something that does not allow me to do all the things I want. I'm living my life now....but I guess it's not to the fullest.

It's also difficult to move around when you are not mobile. I keep thinking, if I had a car, perhaps I get to do more with my life. I get to go places as well. Do the things I would enjoy doing. Not being mobile makes me feel trapped. A little trapped. I remember when I was staying in Kuala Lumpur, it was pretty easy to get to places. The various public transport there were  pretty efficient. Here in Alor Setar.....not so. :( Especially where I'm staying. No bus at all nearby my house. If I wanna go anywhere.....I either have to depend on my bicycle or borrow my Mom's car. I don't like to borrow too often from her as she needs to use it as well. The solution to this problem? Money.....I need more money, so that I can get me a car. I really want to get one by next year. I have to!

I realise I will always have my reasons why I have not been really living my life. I can either keep making up reasons or excuses to explain myself OR start living it. 

So......what is the answer Lin? Will you start living now? To the fullest? God knows I'm am trying.....the best way I know how :) 

Shaun the Sheep

I love watching this cartoon series called Shaun the Sheep.....it  is absolutely cute and funny too! :)

Count On Me - Bruno Mars

I absolutely love this song!!!! Love his voice...so soothing....cheers me up! :) Have a listen! 

 

LYRICS:

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
Yeah Yeah

If tou toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you

Ohh
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
Yeah Yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go
Never say goodbye

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
you can count on me cos' I can count on you

Blue....

Not sure why I am feeling so emotional today.....just not as cheerful as I hope I would be even though I had taken 3 days off from work. Nothing to feel cheerful about either at the moment. Deep inside I think I know why.....but as usual I can never talk about it as freely as I want to.....not even here in my own personal blog.....coz it's just way too personal to discuss about it in here. I wish I had someone to talk to about this.....I wish I had a best friend here whom I can trust.....I just wish I had someone my age I can talk to as well. All this time, it's always with someone older.....I don't even have a close buddy here. So depressing..... hope God will send me someone I can share my thoughts with.....and He better make it quick.....

Invitation to Premiere Screening of Inception

I received an email from Nuffnang last week saying that I won 2 invites to watch the premiere screening of Inception on the 14th of July 2010, 9.30 pm, at GSC Midvalley Megamall.  Thank you Nuffnang!!! I couldn't believe my eyes when I read that email!! :D A beginners luck I thought to myself, because this is the first time ever I participated in Nuffnang's premiere screening contest and won! YAY!!! I never thought that my blog post for the contest would be selected as one of the most creative to win the invites....awesome!! hahahaha.....Check out my blog post  for the contest HERE.

I had to travel to Kuala Lumpur to watch this film.....I went there last Tuesday, watch the film on  Wednesday and came back to Alor Setar on Thursday. PHEW!!! Just a short visit....a short break from work to enjoy myself and have some fun once in a while :). Since this is the first time I've ever won such a contest, I didn't know what to expect. I didn't know that the seating in the cineplex were given to us based on first come first serve, therefore whoever lined up first at the Inception booth would get the best seating in the cineplex. So,  even though I was there with my sis right on time for us to pick up our tickets, looks like many more were there lining up for it much earlier than us. So in the end, we got the 3rd row from the screen seats ! LOL! I was so surprised but was positive about it and just slide my body in position on my seat, and did my level best to stay comfortable throughout the film hahahaha.

From the trailer, I knew this film was going to be great....and sure enough after watching it, I find it mind blowing! Worth every minute of my time spent watching it I tell ya! It was so cool! I was left speechless when the film ended......I just kept saying WOW! many many times...I think it's better I don't tell how the story goes, coz then it won't be a surprise for those who are interested to catch this film. But what I can say is that I love Leonardo DiCaprio's acting.....same goes to one of my favourite actress, Ellen Page.....both gave a great performance in this film. Love the special effects, they were really spectacular....love the screenplay  too. From beginning till the end.....I couldn't predict what was going to happen next....it just kept getting better and better....more and more intense.....even the ending was quite unexpected. Very entertaining....no time for feeling bored at all coz it's action packed....non stop! Fast paced. I wouldn't mind watching it again and again. ;).

Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

A must watch video. :) Love you Randy....may you rest in peace.

Riding again....

Since last night it has been raining cats and dogs over here. It stopped however in the morning till lunch time when it continued to rain again. The temperature has dropped down tremendously and it's wonderful! I love it. Feels very nice not to feel so hot like on previous days.

After over a month of not working out at the park, this morning I started cycling again. I've wanted to do it for the past few weeks already but never really got to doing it. Finally today, I did it and it feels great. I've forgotten how wonderful it feels after a good workout. I hope I won't stop working out again......because I know how difficult it is to start again once I stop doing so for a long period of time. 

Since it rained quite heavily last night, the weather this morning was really fresh and breezy. It was really really wonderful to take rides during this kind of weather. Pure bliss! I was able to ride for over an hour at the park. I did felt numb on the butt for a while when cycling......so much so that I had to make a few stops and walk with the bicycle for a few minutes on each stop. This is because I haven't been cycling for so long. It usually happens like this in the beginning, but after a few days of cycling, I won't have that numb feeling anymore. Guaranteed! LOL! :D

Can't wait to ride again tomorrow........and on days to come! ;)

Best Buy World Malaysia

I came across this great website this morning as I was surfing the net. This website offers a wide range of branded products from cosmetics, bags, fragrances, underwear, accessories, fitness and gift sets there. From brands like Aigner, D&G, Estee Lauder, Gucci, Escada, Prada.....you just name it, they got it! :)

Delivery of goods from the website is provided for customers from Malaysia ONLY. They can deliver to your homes and offices too.  There is one thing that I found out about this website that I find quite interesting is that it offers free delivery for purchases above RM100 and you can make payments cash on delivery if you are staying in Kuala Lumpur or Selangor.

So wait no further, do check out this really cool website at the link below and view all the branded products on sale there!!
http://my.bestbuy-world.com/

Milo Hidup Bola!

Interested in FREE GIFTS???? I AM!!! LOL! As I was bloghopping this morning, I came across another interesting promotion in the Nuffnang advertisement that was about redeeming some cool prizes when you buy Milo products. Milo as you all know is a milk beverage with chocolate and malt, produced by Nestle'. The name Milo was derived from the famous Greek athlete Milo of Crotona, after his legendary strength. :) No wonder la I'm so strong! *yeahhhh riiiggghhhttttt*......LOL! Been drinking Milo for as long as I can remember. hehehehe!

Guess what Nestle' is giving away? Mini Adidas soccer balls and cool sling bags! Yup! You can check out the the rules and regulations on how to get the cool prizes at the link HERE.

I won an ebook!!!

I won! I won! hehehehe!!!! I'm so happy! I won an e-book on how to make handmade chocolates from this wonderful blogger named Khai.....you can visit his blog HERE. I joined this campaign that Khai held at his blog last May. He made this campaign to help people learn how to make handmade chocolates without having to attend those expensive courses and to help people make money selling their own handmade chocolates. Only 10 bloggers were chosen to win this ebook and I'm the lucky number 6! hehehe!!! I've never won anything online before.....this is my first time! Woooohooooooo!

It's really funny how it all started. It was all because of my bucket list! Yup! You see, in my bucket list, I wrote that I wanted to learn how to make handmade chocolates. I've always wanted to learn how to do it since I LOVE TO EAT CHOCOLATES!!!!! hehehehe! But I never really tried to learn it from a master or from anyone for that matter. In my mind, I knew that I would probably have to take a course on it. But the courses are usually very expensive. So when I found out about Khai's campaign on learning how to make the handmade chocolates ourselves, I quickly signed up to join it.....hoping that I would win the ebook. 

I've forgotten all about the campaign until today when I saw one of my readers wrote a message to me at my card blog, congratulating me for winning the ebook! I was shocked!!!! I never expected that I could win it!! I feel so blessed indeed! It's so exciting! The ebook itself is a very interesting read. Khai did a good job in compiling the details from A to Z about the different types of handmade chocolates and how to make them step by step. I've just received the ebook itself today so, I'm still in the process of reading it. Not sure yet when I can start making the handmade chocolates.....but I really hope to do it soon!! Wish me luck!!!

Nescafe' Tarik

Recently my Mom bought this new Nescafe' Tarik 3 in 1 powdered coffee for us to try out. She was so curious to find out what's so special about this latest invention from Nestle'...... hahahaha. So we gave it a try. BUT! That's not the only reason why she bought it......she bought it because she also wanted the free gifts hahahaha.....can you guess what it is???? Yes! It's that kopitiam cup and saucer you see above. LOL! I have no idea why she must have those cups and saucers....as if we don't have enough cups and saucers at home already. I think Nestle's marketing team is so clever.....they came up with this promotion so that they can sell off their products more hahaha.....and people like my Mom who loves to collect free stuff, would fall for this promotions every time! LOL! Noticed how sometimes, we are not even interested in buying the product, but because there is "FREE GIFTS", we buy it anyways?! Sigh!

So! I tried to make myself a cup of Nescafe' Tarik today.....and was really surprised to see so much of bubbles the minute I poured the hot water into the coffee mix. Seriously, I didn't even have to do anything much to the coffee mix.....the bubbles just came up instantly once the hot water hits it. :O I kinda wondered at that moment, what on earth is in the ingredient that makes all those bubbles. Usually, we would have to "tarik" the coffee a few times in order to get those bubbles. Immediately I thought to myself.....hmmmmmm.....I'm drinking chemicals again.....and god knows what it is......therefore, I won't be drinking this again....too afraid actually of the long term effect it might give me.

Honestly, I've always preferred the non instant coffee.......and I also preferred it without any creamer. Just plain black coffee with some brown sugar would be lovely! :) The creamer does makes the coffee tastes extra yummy but it also makes me gain the extra pounds hahahaha. So I try not to take coffee with creamer or condensed milk......I don't mind the fresh milk though. :)

Dead end

I reached a dead end.....didn't know where to go.......seems like my brain just stop producing ideas or something. I have 2 cards that I needed to get done and it's been due for quite sometime now. It's amazing that my customer has not yet sent me an email complaining about not getting her orders done on time. I feel so miserable actually......so angry with myself for taking such a long long time to finish up the orders. I hate it when this happens. 

This is why I won't be taking anymore custom made orders until further notice. I've had enough already!!! So much so that I feel like I want to puke! I just want to start doing designs that I want to do and not what my customers want me to do for a change. I honestly really need a break from custom made orders. Sometimes I think it's just not worth the trouble. I get paid so little for the amount of work that needs to be done. If I charge a lot, nobody wants to order. So I guess it's better I just make whatever designs that I love and try selling them. Better that way. Less stressful! I am not that good in handling stress anyways. I breakdown easily. Maybe when the time is right, I'll start taking custom made orders again......but for now....no more. I hope to get all those custom made card orders done by this week so that I can concentrate on doing what I love. I just can't wait!!!!!! :I