What a week! So many things happened......my Mom got really sick...then I got sick.....now she's improving, alhamdulillah and so am I. Compared to my Mom.....her health issues is a lot more worse than mine.....mine seem so trivial....hehehe. It's been really tough for the past few days. It's a whole new experience for me. I've never had to deal with anyone who has shingles before. It's a nightmare for those who have had it before. I can see now how terrible this disease can be. A real eye opener for me.
I'm trying my best to stay patient.....to stay focused on the matter at hand. All I can think of now is how to get my Mom well again. I hope the pain will go away.....don't come again some other day.....just stay away.
A lot of people have visited us and advised us on the matter. I really appreciate all the help they are giving us. I'm slowly learning about it. Honestly, I thank God that I'm my own boss. I can take leave anytime I want to , in order to take care of my Mom. However, I do have commitments that I have to fulfill. Plans that need to be implemented within the schedule. But for the past few days, all have jumbled up and gone out of track. Now I'm slowly following the plan I've made earlier on and making sure I stay on it.....get the job done in the end.
I'm working on designs for my August giveaway and Raya cards......I already have the ideas......and whenever I get a few minutes off my duty as a nurse......I sneak into my studio and quickly get busy implementing the ideas on paper. I just can't wait to show what I've been up to. But I guess it has to wait for a while before I can update about it in my card blog. I miss creating!
I miss chatting with my friends too. It's been a while since I last chatted with some of them. :( I hope they won't misunderstand......sometimes work do get in the way of connecting with friends. I don't choose to stay away from friends......I had to sometimes because I need the money to support myself. I am not getting a fixed income like most people. If I don't work, I don't earn anything for the day. A Malay saying....."Kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang."
Ever since my Mom got sick, I realised how much she has done all this time for the both of us everyday. Now that she is not able to move around that much, all the duties falls on my shoulders. It was a bit overwhelming at first to be handling all the work in the house and my business, but after a week, I'm starting to get the hang of it. I guess this is a way that God is trying to tell me not to take things for granted. I'm learning a lot from this experience. I don't see it as something that is negative. I see a lot of positive things from this ordeal. He has opened my eyes to a lot of things in life. For that, I am truly grateful. :)