Sunday, August 8, 2010

Pain, pain, go away...

What a week! So many things Mom got really sick...then I got she's improving, alhamdulillah and so am I. Compared to my Mom.....her health issues is a lot more worse than mine.....mine seem so trivial....hehehe. It's been really tough for the past few days. It's a whole new experience for me. I've never had to deal with anyone who has shingles before. It's a nightmare for those who have had it before. I can see now how terrible this disease can be. A real eye opener for me. 

I'm trying my best to stay stay focused on the matter at hand. All I can think of now is how to get my Mom well again. I hope the pain will go away.....don't come again some other day.....just stay away. 

A lot of people have visited us and advised us on the matter. I really appreciate all the help they are giving us. I'm slowly learning about it. Honestly, I thank God that I'm my own boss. I can take leave anytime I want to , in order to take care of my Mom. However, I do have commitments that I have to fulfill. Plans that need to be implemented within the schedule. But for the past few days, all have jumbled up and gone out of track. Now I'm slowly following the plan I've made earlier on and making sure I stay on it.....get the job done in the end.

I'm working on designs for my August giveaway and Raya cards......I already have the ideas......and whenever I get a few minutes off my duty as a nurse......I sneak into my studio and quickly get busy implementing the ideas on paper. I just can't wait to show what I've been up to. But I guess it has to wait for a while before I can update about it in my card blog. I miss creating! 

I miss chatting with my friends too. It's been a while since I last chatted with some of them. :( I hope they won't misunderstand......sometimes work do get in the way of connecting with friends. I don't choose to stay away from friends......I had to sometimes because I need the money to support myself. I am not getting a fixed income like most people. If I don't work, I don't earn anything for the day.  A Malay saying....."Kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang."

Ever since my Mom got sick, I realised how much she has done all this time for the both of us everyday. Now that she is not able to move around that much, all the duties falls on my shoulders. It was a bit overwhelming at first to be handling all the work in the house and my business, but after a week, I'm starting to get the hang of it. I guess this is a way that God is trying to tell me not to take things for granted. I'm learning a lot from this experience. I don't see it as something that is negative. I see a lot of positive things from this ordeal. He has opened my eyes to a lot of things in life. For that, I am truly grateful. :)
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Anonymous said...

Hi, Lin.

Glad to hear your Mom is getting better. It is a tough disease on the one who has it and on the caregiver.

But everything happens for a reason and every experience is a learning one. Maybe you are being tested to see how strong you are or how much you can handle. If you are doing your work and taking care of my Mom and the house, you are doing very well.

Maybe He is keeping you so busy so you do not have time to think about your own illness. This is a good thing.

We have a saying in Europe (I am European)- "There is nothing so bad that something good doesn't come out of it". I have to admit that all the bad things that have happened to me in my lifetime, ALWAYS something good came out of every one. ALWAYS.

Do not worry about making time for your friends. This is a time that you need to make for you and for your Mom. If the friends are true, they will understand. If not, then you know what kind of friends they were.

Sending warm hugs to you and your Mom.

Look deep inside and pull in all that strength that you have there. You will get through this but remember where your strength is.

Remember one thing - this too shall pass.


Asma' Ahmad said...

oh kak lin. m so sorry to hear this. tapi bila baca last paragraph, lega hati ni rasa. i know by the way you write, kak lin jauh lebih tabah dr yg kak lin sangka ;) keep on looking at brighter side. cuz it may brings a lot of meanings, not only for you. but also for people surround as well as your readers here ^^ this a very good sharing for us to be more grateful for having our ups and downs =')

iYda Juhar said...

salam ramadhan. selamat berpuasa.
jangan lupe sahur !!!


Noor Azlina Abdul Samad K. said...

Barbara...I'm just speechless every time you write to me....words cannot express how blessed I am to have a friend like you :) God bless you dear. Thank you so much!

As...thank you dear...I hope sama2 la kita belajar dari pengalaman pahit. Sesungguhnya pasti ada yg baik yg kita dapat darinya di kemudian hari.

Iyda...same to you too dear! Insyaallah Klin selalu sahur dengan Mak... :)

Anonymous said...

Hi, Lin.

Glad I can help - all I can do is give you some kind and encouraging words. We all need that and we all can give that. It takes just as much effort to say something kind as it is to say something mean.

No need to thank me. I am only doing God's work and what I have been called to do.

You see, I have been summoned to help a dear, kind and hopelessly unselfish lady named Lin. You did pray for a friend and here I am.

You see, ALL prayers come true - yours, mine and everyone's. We must believe, though.

Take care my friend. You are destined for some great things in this life. But you must believe first.